So many things can happen in one year...its incredible. Last January I became a vegan, that lasted until April when I found out I was pregnant, then I found out my sister was pregnant again, I found out I was having a boy, my friends Lori and Adam got married in August, I became unemployed, my best friend started going to a new church, our church fell apart, my friends celebrated their one year wedding anniversary, Noah came six weeks early and four days after that my mom has an anuerysm rupture and she falls into a coma which she still hasn't come out of.
Theres always good things and bad things that happen in life. I know we sometimes wish only good things happened to us, but I thank God for the "bad" becuase I know He has a plan and a purpose and I trust Him, with me and my family. I know He loves me I know He loves my family and that everything that happens, good or bad, has to go through Him first...so if He allows the "bad" its for a reason. It was really hard to "celebrate" thanksgiving, christmas and new years without my mom. Her birthday is coming up on the 5th of january, she'll be turning 48.
Noah is turning 7 weeks in 2 days. He'll be two months on the 16th of january. He weighs 8 lbs. and measure 20 and 1/4 inches. He's grown so much...I was surprised today to find that 3 month old clothes fit him. Who would think he was a preemie?
So as you can see I find myself in this bittersweet place. I'm sad beyond my wildest dreams because of what's happening with my mom, its not that I don't trust God, I know He has a plan but it hurts to see her in that condition, I almost wish it was me instead of her and at the same time I'm happy beyond my wildest dreams because I have been granted the gift of being a momma. Exhausting sleepless nights and all. It's completely worth it.
